I dont know?

Well here I am again, and not sure what to write about. I guess I will just get something out of my head, to the world? So my mom went into the hospital last week and we weren’t sure how it would go. With a little history into our relationship, my mom got really sick about 10 years ago and it devastated the entire family in every way. She was the back bone for everything! She raised three of us on her own and worked full time as an RN. I really looked up to my mom seeing everything she accomplished including three brats, for awhile I remember a time I wanted to be an RN, until I realized bodily fluids freak me out. So when she got sick I kind of lost it, for awhile she was the strong person I had always known. Then things changed, she started to give up. Over the years I watched her loose more and more of her fight and slowly deteriorate. Finally I realized she was done trying to find a way to get better. I just couldn’t take it anymore, I wanted to rember her the way she was, the one I looked up to. Slowly my visits became shorter and less frequent. When she was in the hospital last week it just brought up all the pain of when she first got sick. With work, school, and a wife I made time to be with her every day she was there. After a few days of being there, she pops out of bed the person I remember from before she got sick ten years ago (well not quite but really close). She seems to have the passion back for a better and happier quality of life. With that said, here is where this troubles me. What happens if she goes back to the way she was? How much should I push and/or stand by her side and fight or at all? I don’t really think I have it in me to do that, especially if we fail again. The questions are rhetorical.

Why??

Why when things are starting to look on the up and up, you just get knocked down, what the hell? Things were looking good besides not having time to spend with my wife, due to school and work. The semester started good, A little stress with the whole financial aid thing but for the most part good. Classes were going good I understood all the material and was eager to learn. Then things started to go south, one of my teachers didn’t prepare us for the first exam (in my opinion) He just had us read the first chapter for three weeks and he never could get through the class lectures. Obviously we fell behind rather quickly and had to rush to catch up for the exam. When he went over the exam in class there were many questions that contradicted the learning objectives and when questioned about it he just gave us the answers, well guess what HE WAS WRONG! He said he gave us the points for the questions, but when I confronted him about my grade he said I must have heard him wrong. Then he docked me 10 point for the essay questions I asked him why, He said I provided the correct answer but didn’t elaborate. He did say in class that they weren’t traditional essay questions and a couple sentences would be fine, So I feel I should have gotten a 96 he gave me an 85. I know Life is not fair, But I’m paying to learn not be given incorrect information.